3DPO

I've been meaning to write a post for quite a while now, but life always seemed to get in the way. I apologize to those who have been waiting for a new post!


Today I would have been 20 weeks and I've been doing a lot of reflecting and reminiscing. I would have been halfway through my pregnancy. Yet everything is different now. Although I still have my bad days (yesterday was one, I spent most of the day in bed) I feel a sense of hope too. I know we will have a child eventually, whether it's through myself, a surrogate or adoption; I feel like we were meant to be parents. I just really, really hope I never have to go through another miscarriage; I don't think I'm strong enough for that.


I'm now 3DPO (days past ovulation) and I'm in the anxious 2WW wait. I took my Femara and produced one large follicle (2.7 when last measured) but I wasn't ovulating on my own. So I had to get the trigger shot. Not fun. For those who don't know, it's a shot into your belly (just below your bellybutton) that triggers you to ovulate. I got the shot last Saturday morning and believe I ovulated late Sunday night (based on the pain and cramping). The annoying thing about the trigger shot is that it contains hCG (pregnancy hormone) so if I test to see if I am pregnant I'll get a false positive. That means I have to wait until next Saturday (if AF doesn't come first) to go in for a pregnancy test (blood test). Since every body is different, they don't know for sure when the hCG will leave my body, therefore I can't be sure if I have a true positive pregnancy test or not. If you know me in person, I'm not the most patient person in the world, and waiting for either AF or a pregnancy test is BRUTAL for me!


I don't feel this is our cycle. Too many things have happened. I've had a UTI, Hubby and I both had to get treated (again) for Ureaplasma infections, I found out I have a slow thyroid and was put on medication.....and that's just a few things going on right now. Even though I got a large follicle and ovulated, it just doesn't feel right. I'm OK with that though, it's only our first cycle trying after the D&C. I would love to be pregnant for Christmas-most people have no idea how hard it is for people TTC through the holidays; there are children and babies everywhere. If I'm not pregnant though, I'm going to do my best to work through it and concentrate on the next cycle. It's just exhausting, going to the FC every other day......but I am thankful have been able to get pregnant in the first place. 


For those who are praying for us and keeping their fingers crossed, please continue to do so. I feel supported by my amazing husband, family and friends, and for that I am truly grateful.