Bad Day

I'm not having a good day today. I'm very depressed and feeling down. I tried going to to the mall to cheer me up but that didn't work; I just saw babies and strollers everywhere. So no positive post from me today.

However.....two things I'm thankful for today:

-Caesar Salad...I started craving it when I got pregnant and it hasn't gone away. I'm obsessed, and normally I'd much rather have a garden salad or spinach salad!

-My husband. I know I've already said it, but I really wouldn't survive this without him.

Thank you

Just a quick post to thank everyone who has been so supportive throughout this blog adventure. I can't count the number of people who have mentioned it to me, either by text, Facebook or face-to-face. Your support means the world to me. 


I love you all. 


An extra special thank you to my immediate family and best friends, I'd be lost without you. 

Dreams and KD

Two things I'm thankful for: 


-Great dreams


-KD


I didn't make it onto my blog yesterday because I literally slept all day (I don't know if it's the surgery, the depression, the lack of iron or all three but I'm exhausted all the time).  Yesterday I was thankful for great dreams. I had a dream where my whole family was in Cuba enjoying themselves. It was amazing. I woke up and tried to go back to sleep to the same dream, but it didn't happen. Last night I had a dream my best friend and I stayed in New York and had an AWESOME apartment. It was a very exciting and happy dream (it was only temporary though, don't worry hubby). 


Today, I'm making KD. It's one of my favourite things to eat, but I don't eat it often because it's not the healthiest option (let's be honest here). Today however-I'm making it, and I'm going to ENJOY it. 

Stepping Up

People never seem to know how to respond to a miscarriage. I've had people say (unintentional) hurtful things, ignore the whole situation, and be more supportive than I could have possibly imagined. 

I'm disappointed in some friends and extended family. They've pretended I never had a miscarriage; was never pregnant. Maybe they don't know what to say. A simple "I'm sorry, I'm here for you" is more than enough. I would never ignore a death in your family, why are you ignoring mine? It hurts so much. 

On the other hand, I've had other people step up in ways I've never imagined. People I haven't spoken to in years have contacted me. Friends that I only see sometimes have sent flowers and cards. Most of all, people have told me my blog is inspiring to them. That means the most to me. To all those people-thank you. I will never be able to re-pay you but know that you've made a difference in this very difficult time. 

It's times like these you can tell who you can really trust and rely on. 

Laughter

I laughed out loud tonight at something one of my friends said to me online. A genuine, full on laugh. It reminded me that even though the world seems dark and gloomy right now, it WILL get better. Someone always has it worse off then me-I need to keep that in mind. 


Maybe the world isn't so bad after all. 


I'm going to try and write down (or at least think of) at least one positive thing a day. 


Today: Laughter.