This weekend

At lot has happened since I've posted last. Saturday morning I woke up with a LOT of bleeding and very large clots. We called Telehealth and they advised us to go to the hospital immediately, so we did. We arrived around ten am. We saw the doctor on call, I had blood work done and an IV put in, and finally the OB on call came to see me. She sent me for an ultrasound and found a very small piece of retained tissue. She gave me a medication called Misoprostol, which causes the uterus to contract and the tissue to be expelled. By the time we got out of the hospital it was after 4pm, and we had plans that night for hubby's birthday. So, I decided to start the Miso on Sunday, and try and enjoy one night out first. I took the first dose at 1am Sunday (right before bed) and the second dose at 1pm. There was a lot of cramping, but that's about it. It didn't work for me. 


So I went and saw my OBGYN/Surgeon yesterday afternoon. He had a copy of the ultrasound and the blood work. The good news: My hormones are still wacky, but not as wacky as they could be. My betas were down to 13, which is good. The bad news: The doctor didn't think the Miso would work again. So I had the choice of "waiting it out" (keeping in mind how small this tissue was and that it may have been already expelled) or going in for another D&C. I chose to wait it out. I think my body has been through enough in the past while. Plus the Dr. couldn't guarantee he would get this small piece of tissue (since going in for a D&C is like going in half blind) plus I already have an infection in my uterus, and another D&C would just make it worse. So that's the story. I feel like I'm on the mend, and that I'm through the worst of it (hopefully). 


I thought once I stopped bleeding and clotting I would immediately feel better, but now I just feel empty. My hope from before is gone. I knew it wouldn't stay. Right now I'm just trying to take care of myself and my body and let my friends and family help out where they can.